Skype's weird

-_- Skype keeps track of your most contacted people in descending order. Within a week she was in the 2nd spot. Within two weeks she was in the first spot. We talked almost non-stop for a month so she stayed there. Something happened at the end of that month and we haven't really talked since... like maximum once or twice a week if that. It took 3 months for the people in other spots to move up. -_- It's just feels weird that I talked more with her in a month than I talked to a lot of these other people in the course of 3 months and that when she wasn't in that first place any more she dropped to fifth. idk

-_- Skype keeps track of your most contacted people in descending order. Within a week she was in the 2nd spot. Within two weeks she was in the first spot. We talked almost non-stop for a month so she stayed there. Something happened at the end of that month and we haven't really talked since... lik ... Posted via email from ph15h's posterous

Ffffff airport

So... I have to pick up some family from the airport and am reminded of why I hate picking up family from the airport. I'm a very resourceful person but how am I supposed to know when and where to pick you up without any flight number or even the airlines. Doesn't help they're coming from another country and she doesn't have a US cell phone to tell me they've arrived. Or the fact that I have no idea what she looks like because I've never met her before. -_- I'm very resourceful... But even khoi magic won't work here. Here's to hours of idling at the international terminal because I don't have a crudely written by sharpie sign with bad Vietnamese writing on it.

So... I have to pick up some family from the airport and am reminded of why I hate picking up family from the airport. I'm a very resourceful person but how am I supposed to know when and where to pick you up without any flight number or even the airlines. Doesn't help they're coming from another co ... Posted via email from ph15h's posterous

Trololol with Singed and win a 4v5

-_- this was probably one of the longest games I've played... or atleast it felt that was

Early on in the game, our Gangplank was complaining about lag... after getting and almost sure kill on Gangplank "A SUMMONER HAS DISCONNECTED" lolwtf? so... what would have turned out to be first blood onto Gragas turned into a double kill by the Gragas and Ezreal botlane (stupid... I know) We both revived and he reconnected went back to botlane and lagged out again. Got killed by Ezreal and Gragas. -_- So... being down 0/3/1 we were disheartened, but the other team made foolish mistakes. Having no Jungler, our Tristana was 2v1'd top. She killed both the Vayne and the Tryndamere that attempted to dive her... being the baddies they were Ezreal and Gragas pushed my lane ot the tower, allowing me to farm with Poison trail. Being worth practically nothing, I was able to farm while the Ezreal and Gragas just derped around and tried to kill our tower. ^-^ Thank you fiddles ult. Picked up 2 assists. Being worth nothing, I could do stupid shit like tower dive and throw Ezreal back onto Fiddles ult for the assist. Our Annie was damn good too... killed Anivia in mid, and helped gank other lanes. Our Tristana tower hugged and just farmed up... not the best items but she went to work and killed kids. Being worth nothing I initiated every fight and threw back the Tryndamere that thought he was smart trying to kill our all squishy team. It was fun... until my poison accidentally got a kill. I was suddenly worth something again -_- That's not the most fun position to be in if you're playing a ph15h style feeder style initiate Singed... then I got another and another until I had 2 kills. Being stupid... I dived and gave the other team a large sum of gold. As my team did Baron all I did was derp around mid and make the enemy team run around. ^-^ Good shit... I died, but I died before they got Baron so the other team was none the wiser due to their awful or maybe even non-existant warding skills. Oh well... we won through master baiting from Tristana and myself which lead to 5 Man Fiddles ults that killed everybody but the Tryn.

 

I've noticed every 4v5 or3v5 I've won had a Gragas on the other team. lol... coincidental?

-_- this was probably one of the longest games I've played... or atleast it felt that was Early on in the game, our Gangplank was complaining about lag... after getting and almost sure kill on Gangplank "A SUMMONER HAS DISCONNECTED" lolwtf? so... what would have turned out to be first blood onto Gra ... Posted via email from ph15h's posterous

Shen OP

-_- Won a 4v5 with Shen and went Godlike. Only 4 total deaths on our team :D 4v5 has its perks... You gain experience faster since you have 3 solos and people on the other team get cocky :D -_- Harassed me and I still out CS'd the other team's Teemo... died came back and double killed bottom >.> bad Gragas and Teemo. They surrendered at 30 minutes after the Team Scores were 7 towers, 28 to 4 :P

-_- Won a 4v5 with Shen and went Godlike. Only 4 total deaths on our team :D 4v5 has its perks... You gain experience faster since you have 3 solos and people on the other team get cocky :D -_- Harassed me and I still out CS'd the other team's Teemo... died came back and double killed bottom >.> bad ... Posted via email from ph15h's posterous

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Burnout Paradise Bundle is a Steal

Every and anybody out there with a PS3 that does not have Burnout Paradise and all of its DLC. GET THE COMPLETE EDITION OFF of PSN for $30. It'll eventually come to the 360 as a DLC bundle pack if Criterion people are to be believed since the DLC pack is for 19.99 right now. It is such a steal. Consider this:
Burnout Paradise: 19.99 Retail, Plus tax and whatnot if bought physically.
Party Pack: 9.99 off PSN or XBL or a part of the "Ultimate Box that wasn't really Ultimate"
Legendary cars: 7.99 off PSN or XBL. -_- Nice cars. Not worth the price separate TBH. like 3-5 bucks each
Time Savers Pack: 4.99 off PSN or XBL. Kinda lame, but you get all the cars from the get go. yay
Toy Cars:  12.99. Nice fun cars to drive :D
Boost Specials: 7.99
Cops and Robbers: 9.99
Big Surf Island:  12.99. OMG THIS IS EPIC.

That's close to 87 bucks. -_- Now think about it... 87-30 = 57. 57 dollars saved. Even then, just taking into account DLC ALONE. The DLC bundle is for 20 bucks, which is the same price as the game. So if you just get he DLC
Add all of them together and what do ya get? 67-20= 47. You're saving 47 bucks still if you have the game without any of the DLC. -_- Kinda feel guilty for not getting any of the DLC beforehand, but glad I waited.

Every and anybody out there with a PS3 that does not have Burnout Paradise and all of its DLC. GET THE COMPLETE EDITION OFF of PSN for $30. It'll eventually come to the 360 as a DLC bundle pack if Criterion people are to be believed since the DLC pack is for 19.99 right now. It is such a steal. Cons ... Posted via web from ph15h's posterous

Feeling Under Appreciated

After all that I've done, I'm still treated like shit?

I do most good deeds out of generosity and to try to help better their lives so I don't really care but after all this I'm still treated like a nobody? I drive them places, I pick them up from places, I help them transport things, I help them get through the bureaucratic mess that is California, I lend them money, I talk with them when they need to vent, I teach them English, I translate for them, I help their kids with homework, I teach them how to do things they have not yet done before, I share my food with them, I fix their computers, I fix their TVs, I set up their equipment, I take them shopping, I help them when they're in need, yet when I'm in need and just ask a simple fucking favor I just get a flat out "No?" What kind of fucking family/ world is this? You can't be doing things expecting something in return, but just a simple compliment, display of gratitude or returning of the favor couldn't be too much to ask? It's like nothing I do makes any progress and I'm just turning out to be that guy that they can rely on without ever considering that person's need. I'm fucking tired.

After all that I've done, I'm still treated like shit? I do most good deeds out of generosity and to try to help better their lives so I don't really care but after all this I'm still treated like a nobody? I drive them places, I pick them up from places, I help them transport things, I help them ... Posted via web from ph15h's posterous

It's True: HD

After seeing something in HD, watching the Standard Definition version just isn't... satisfying.

If....

I know she doesn't read English well, or even use the internet well enough to find this post, but if something should happen to me, please redirect *** ***** to a letter I put under my PS3. My family members who I've recently talked to know who she is. Happens to be related to my recurring dream, but until then here's my transcript in English:

If I die, promise me you won't cry. I don't want to make you sad. I don't want to see you sad. I don't want you to be sad at any point in time. A while back, I wanted you to hate me so that you wouldn't feel sad when I die, but I care too much about you to be an asshole that would deliberately make you angry and hate me. Please promise me you won't cry.

Honestly...

I fucking hate my life. All that "you should be grateful" shit is bullfuckingshit. I honestly couldnt give a fuck. Im going to do what i want to do from now on. Fuck an education. At this point it's all to spite others. If i follow through itll be just to make people mad. Wanna be a lawyer? Just to shut my aunt the fuck up with her illogical bullshit. Wanna be a doctor? Just to prove my dad wrong. Wanna be an engineer? No. Wanna be pharmacist? Just so i can sell drugs legally and corrupt people with the facade that these placebos people are taking actually make a benefit. Business? Get rich for me and only for me. I couldnt give a fuck about the poor in that position. See. I do what i want because i want to. I help people cuz i want to. The second it changes from a voluntary action to an order... fuck that. I really would like to help people but seeing what type of people make up a majority of the people i make a priority i honestly dont want to. They say im lazy but id say its more about a lack of motivation and a conflict of interest than laziness. Same reason I'm a living blasphemy. I believe in a higher force but i say fuck them. If they really exist with all their divination and BULLSHIT why would allow what viruses and diseases and genuinely fake people and genuinely evil people exist. Why would they allow for things that weaken a person spiritually and physically to occur? Unless they're just fucking playing with you. That youre a part of their grand experiment of how much a man could take before they crack and destroy everything: themselves their friends their family the foundation they

arcade stick

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Summer Project: Arcade Stick

8 buttons + 3 for PS, Start and Select

Seimitsu stick or Sanwa Stick... not sure. Maybe Sanwa since it has the ability to switch gates between 8 and 4.

SixAxiS... for the circuit board. or, just buy an "easy" one.

Wood for the casing.... or again. Buy a plastic one. Might go with plasic.

So at the bare minimum, I'd need a stick,  11 buttons, a PCB, and a case. -_- Great

Stick Range from 11.95-24.95 for me.

Buttons? God knows how much. I don't

-_- That or shell out 99.99 for an HRAP3 and wait for that to come... eventually.

My Perfect Controller

The Perfect Controller... for this generation... in my opinion.

Essentials

Analog Sticks:
Type: 360 Sticks with a little depression for the thumbs
Placement: 360 Not smack dab in the middle like the PS3's
Material: PS3 A little better grip than the 360s

Buttons (Face):
Type: 360 Curved upward and pops out kinda
Placement: PS3/360 same shit on both controllers anyway
Material: 360+PS3 360's is too smooth and slippery, and PS3's feel too much like the controller

"Bumpers"/Aka Top Forward Buttons:
Type: PS3 Analog
Placement: PS3 Juuuust Right above the face buttons and back a little
Material: PS3 + 360 PS3's too Grippy and the 360's too middly

Directional Pad:
Type: Wii one piece... maybe a little curved at the end like the PS3's (Actually... I'd rather just have the Saturn's's D-pad, but this is THIS generation's controller)
Placement: 360 Between the two analogs
Material: PS3 Nice Grip, but allows for quick movements

IR Sensor: Wii

Motion Sensing:
Type: PS3 It feels more sensitive than the Wii Remote to me

Rumble:
Type: PS3 2 Motors. Force Feedback. Yay? Obviously the Dualshock 3... SIXAXIS doesn't have rumble lol

Triggers:
Type: 360
Material: PS2 What? You didn't know the PS2 was still "this generation?" a little between 2 and 3 actually
Placement: 360

Other...:

MEDIA (PS/X/Home) Button:
Type: PS3 Not Too far out and really slick with one of those holographic stickers that alternate between all 3 systems

Start/Select (+/-)(Start/back):
Button Design: PS3 the > and block thing
Button Makeup: Wii the hard buttons
Button Press: 360 so it depresses like a regular button

Ports: Mini-USB/360's little plug/ "Nintendo Expansion Port" Actually... it'd be really cool if there was something that plugged into the Mini-USB that acted like the Wii's Port or the 360's little plug thing. THAT would be awesome...

Connection: Bluetooth + M$ Proprietary

New Meaning to Life

I regret nothing of yesterday, embrace today, and have high hopes for tomorrow. I'll reach the heavens and make the world a better place, even if it's the last thing I'll do.

After finishing Gurren Lagann, I've felt more inspired than ever to do what my original goal was: make the world a better place. Although Gurren Lagann was really just over the top action with corny dialogue that actually hit home after you get over the fact that you're watching an Anime, I've come to realize you just have to keep on pushing.

I can't always regret my actions. I did them for a reason, and thinking back they might or might not have been the best decision, but what's done is done. My thoughts and rationale now can't comprehend my mindset and my motives at that point in time and the more I dwell on the subject, the more likely I am to revert. I did it for a reason, regardless of what my intentions were when they occured. I'll make a 10 course dinner out of a lemon if I have to. Letting go of the past is like letting a part inside of you die, but things die for a reason and death is inevitable. Move on.

By embracing today, I'm able to expect the unexpected. Whatever I'm given I just have to deal with it. Yesterday's actions affect today and I have come to accept that. A minute action or offcomment might radically change the course of my day, but it'll just go on to affect tomorrow.

Tomorrow. A day that isn't always promised. Hope drives me to believe that tomorrow will be a better place than today, and hope that I made that change. Blah blah blah. Forget that political rhetoric. I want tomorrow the be better than today. I'll do whatever in my power to fulfill such a goal. If I messed up beyond belief yesterday, I'll attempt to fix it today, if not I'll put my faith in tomorrow that I have made enough progress to ensure such a resolution

Heaven. Heaven is a term used to describe many things. The skies, the place you go when you die, or the place where all conditions make it enjoyable for you. I want to attain all of them. Being grounded on the earth makes life seem bounded. If I was to go beyond the grasps I can define what it is I want to be. Although I am a man of many sins, I have come to terms with the fact that sinning is living and living is to sin. I'm not talking about acts of atrocities, that's just wrong. I'm just saying people will not go their entire life without committing a sin. It is those who acknowledge the fact that they do, and are able to justify their actions that I believe will find a place in their heaven. A place where I find enjoyable is where nobody has life or death struggles, shelter or rain decisions. Although I have not had those events happen to me, I just wish the entire world will be able to experience peace. If children in countries around the world stopped dying, and parents stopped being so lazy in America and letting their children waste off, I honestly think the world will be a better place.

I'll make the world a better place, even if it's the last thing I do, and you can count on that.

I, Khoi D. Pham, hereby start the Initiative for a Better Life. Why isn't it a movement? Movements happen once, revolutions continue around and constantly affect people.

Lie to Me

Lie to me.

Tell me everything is gonna be alright.

Tell me that nobody gets killed at night

Tell me that the dark will always succumb to the light

Tell me everybody will get along and not fight

Tell me that good food is in every bite

Tell me you can see everything if you have your sight

Tell me I can reach unlimited the height

Tell me I can be as successful as somebody who was born a fraction white.

Tell me life is beautiful... but not quite

Lie to me.

Tell me I can be anything I want to be

Tell me I can go as far as my eye can see

Tell me my roots'll be as strong as those of a tree

Tell me freedom is free

Tell me education is the key

Tell me people don't hate me

Tell me text messages over the limit don't cost a fee

Tell me God's a G.

Tell me some kid wants to aspire to be me

Tell me Palm will kill Apple with their Pre

Tell me it's okay for an Asian Kid to ski

Tell me the PS3 will beat the Wii

Tell me book isn't as good as the movie.

Lie to me...

Tell me the sun's always shining and there's no rain.

Tell me life is without pain

Tell me there's nothing to lose, only things to gain

Tell me little girls in the hood don't ride the train

Tell me it's more profitable to get a 9-5 than it is to sell 'Caine

Tell me George Bush was sane

Tell me all our hopes and dreams aren't going down the drain

Tell me blood don't stain

Tell me the moon don't wane

Tell me people don't say my name in vane

Tell me that everybody knows my name...

Lie to me.

Tell me and let me know that you legitimately care

Tell me you'll always be there

Tell me that your intentions are pure

Tell me you're my pessimism's cure

Tell me I'm not Insecure

Tell me I'm always right

But tell me I'm wrong when I say our environment is a blight

Tell me

Feed me

Give me all your lies

Whether or not you're looking out for me, or trying to hurt me

Lie to me.

Final Fantasy

So I've been thinking... Final Fantasy is doing its thing, and its spin-offs and branches are doing well and all... but W(here)TF IS OUR NEW FINAL FANTASY: MYSTIC QUEST?

Every other spin-off has been expanded upon. I kno, I kno. It wasn't all that great. But look, if you can screw up SaGa and screw up Mana, how bout trying Mystic Quest? C'mon look at it. I kno I kno that they were originally named some other shit in Japan and it isn't really a spin-off but a different IP but really, let's expand. Also... I doubt Crystal Chronicles or Tactics will have a title change, but it would be akward in a good way if they did. -_- Yes I was bored. Don't mind this bored fanboy.