It's True: HD

After seeing something in HD, watching the Standard Definition version just isn't... satisfying.

If....

I know she doesn't read English well, or even use the internet well enough to find this post, but if something should happen to me, please redirect *** ***** to a letter I put under my PS3. My family members who I've recently talked to know who she is. Happens to be related to my recurring dream, but until then here's my transcript in English:

If I die, promise me you won't cry. I don't want to make you sad. I don't want to see you sad. I don't want you to be sad at any point in time. A while back, I wanted you to hate me so that you wouldn't feel sad when I die, but I care too much about you to be an asshole that would deliberately make you angry and hate me. Please promise me you won't cry.

Honestly...

I fucking hate my life. All that "you should be grateful" shit is bullfuckingshit. I honestly couldnt give a fuck. Im going to do what i want to do from now on. Fuck an education. At this point it's all to spite others. If i follow through itll be just to make people mad. Wanna be a lawyer? Just to shut my aunt the fuck up with her illogical bullshit. Wanna be a doctor? Just to prove my dad wrong. Wanna be an engineer? No. Wanna be pharmacist? Just so i can sell drugs legally and corrupt people with the facade that these placebos people are taking actually make a benefit. Business? Get rich for me and only for me. I couldnt give a fuck about the poor in that position. See. I do what i want because i want to. I help people cuz i want to. The second it changes from a voluntary action to an order... fuck that. I really would like to help people but seeing what type of people make up a majority of the people i make a priority i honestly dont want to. They say im lazy but id say its more about a lack of motivation and a conflict of interest than laziness. Same reason I'm a living blasphemy. I believe in a higher force but i say fuck them. If they really exist with all their divination and BULLSHIT why would allow what viruses and diseases and genuinely fake people and genuinely evil people exist. Why would they allow for things that weaken a person spiritually and physically to occur? Unless they're just fucking playing with you. That youre a part of their grand experiment of how much a man could take before they crack and destroy everything: themselves their friends their family the foundation they

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Summer Project: Arcade Stick

8 buttons + 3 for PS, Start and Select

Seimitsu stick or Sanwa Stick... not sure. Maybe Sanwa since it has the ability to switch gates between 8 and 4.

SixAxiS... for the circuit board. or, just buy an "easy" one.

Wood for the casing.... or again. Buy a plastic one. Might go with plasic.

So at the bare minimum, I'd need a stick,  11 buttons, a PCB, and a case. -_- Great

Stick Range from 11.95-24.95 for me.

Buttons? God knows how much. I don't

-_- That or shell out 99.99 for an HRAP3 and wait for that to come... eventually.

My Perfect Controller

The Perfect Controller... for this generation... in my opinion.

Essentials

Analog Sticks:
Type: 360 Sticks with a little depression for the thumbs
Placement: 360 Not smack dab in the middle like the PS3's
Material: PS3 A little better grip than the 360s

Buttons (Face):
Type: 360 Curved upward and pops out kinda
Placement: PS3/360 same shit on both controllers anyway
Material: 360+PS3 360's is too smooth and slippery, and PS3's feel too much like the controller

"Bumpers"/Aka Top Forward Buttons:
Type: PS3 Analog
Placement: PS3 Juuuust Right above the face buttons and back a little
Material: PS3 + 360 PS3's too Grippy and the 360's too middly

Directional Pad:
Type: Wii one piece... maybe a little curved at the end like the PS3's (Actually... I'd rather just have the Saturn's's D-pad, but this is THIS generation's controller)
Placement: 360 Between the two analogs
Material: PS3 Nice Grip, but allows for quick movements

IR Sensor: Wii

Motion Sensing:
Type: PS3 It feels more sensitive than the Wii Remote to me

Rumble:
Type: PS3 2 Motors. Force Feedback. Yay? Obviously the Dualshock 3... SIXAXIS doesn't have rumble lol

Triggers:
Type: 360
Material: PS2 What? You didn't know the PS2 was still "this generation?" a little between 2 and 3 actually
Placement: 360

Other...:

MEDIA (PS/X/Home) Button:
Type: PS3 Not Too far out and really slick with one of those holographic stickers that alternate between all 3 systems

Start/Select (+/-)(Start/back):
Button Design: PS3 the > and block thing
Button Makeup: Wii the hard buttons
Button Press: 360 so it depresses like a regular button

Ports: Mini-USB/360's little plug/ "Nintendo Expansion Port" Actually... it'd be really cool if there was something that plugged into the Mini-USB that acted like the Wii's Port or the 360's little plug thing. THAT would be awesome...

Connection: Bluetooth + M$ Proprietary

New Meaning to Life

I regret nothing of yesterday, embrace today, and have high hopes for tomorrow. I'll reach the heavens and make the world a better place, even if it's the last thing I'll do.

After finishing Gurren Lagann, I've felt more inspired than ever to do what my original goal was: make the world a better place. Although Gurren Lagann was really just over the top action with corny dialogue that actually hit home after you get over the fact that you're watching an Anime, I've come to realize you just have to keep on pushing.

I can't always regret my actions. I did them for a reason, and thinking back they might or might not have been the best decision, but what's done is done. My thoughts and rationale now can't comprehend my mindset and my motives at that point in time and the more I dwell on the subject, the more likely I am to revert. I did it for a reason, regardless of what my intentions were when they occured. I'll make a 10 course dinner out of a lemon if I have to. Letting go of the past is like letting a part inside of you die, but things die for a reason and death is inevitable. Move on.

By embracing today, I'm able to expect the unexpected. Whatever I'm given I just have to deal with it. Yesterday's actions affect today and I have come to accept that. A minute action or offcomment might radically change the course of my day, but it'll just go on to affect tomorrow.

Tomorrow. A day that isn't always promised. Hope drives me to believe that tomorrow will be a better place than today, and hope that I made that change. Blah blah blah. Forget that political rhetoric. I want tomorrow the be better than today. I'll do whatever in my power to fulfill such a goal. If I messed up beyond belief yesterday, I'll attempt to fix it today, if not I'll put my faith in tomorrow that I have made enough progress to ensure such a resolution

Heaven. Heaven is a term used to describe many things. The skies, the place you go when you die, or the place where all conditions make it enjoyable for you. I want to attain all of them. Being grounded on the earth makes life seem bounded. If I was to go beyond the grasps I can define what it is I want to be. Although I am a man of many sins, I have come to terms with the fact that sinning is living and living is to sin. I'm not talking about acts of atrocities, that's just wrong. I'm just saying people will not go their entire life without committing a sin. It is those who acknowledge the fact that they do, and are able to justify their actions that I believe will find a place in their heaven. A place where I find enjoyable is where nobody has life or death struggles, shelter or rain decisions. Although I have not had those events happen to me, I just wish the entire world will be able to experience peace. If children in countries around the world stopped dying, and parents stopped being so lazy in America and letting their children waste off, I honestly think the world will be a better place.

I'll make the world a better place, even if it's the last thing I do, and you can count on that.

I, Khoi D. Pham, hereby start the Initiative for a Better Life. Why isn't it a movement? Movements happen once, revolutions continue around and constantly affect people.

Lie to Me

Lie to me.

Tell me everything is gonna be alright.

Tell me that nobody gets killed at night

Tell me that the dark will always succumb to the light

Tell me everybody will get along and not fight

Tell me that good food is in every bite

Tell me you can see everything if you have your sight

Tell me I can reach unlimited the height

Tell me I can be as successful as somebody who was born a fraction white.

Tell me life is beautiful... but not quite

Lie to me.

Tell me I can be anything I want to be

Tell me I can go as far as my eye can see

Tell me my roots'll be as strong as those of a tree

Tell me freedom is free

Tell me education is the key

Tell me people don't hate me

Tell me text messages over the limit don't cost a fee

Tell me God's a G.

Tell me some kid wants to aspire to be me

Tell me Palm will kill Apple with their Pre

Tell me it's okay for an Asian Kid to ski

Tell me the PS3 will beat the Wii

Tell me book isn't as good as the movie.

Lie to me...

Tell me the sun's always shining and there's no rain.

Tell me life is without pain

Tell me there's nothing to lose, only things to gain

Tell me little girls in the hood don't ride the train

Tell me it's more profitable to get a 9-5 than it is to sell 'Caine

Tell me George Bush was sane

Tell me all our hopes and dreams aren't going down the drain

Tell me blood don't stain

Tell me the moon don't wane

Tell me people don't say my name in vane

Tell me that everybody knows my name...

Lie to me.

Tell me and let me know that you legitimately care

Tell me you'll always be there

Tell me that your intentions are pure

Tell me you're my pessimism's cure

Tell me I'm not Insecure

Tell me I'm always right

But tell me I'm wrong when I say our environment is a blight

Tell me

Feed me

Give me all your lies

Whether or not you're looking out for me, or trying to hurt me

Lie to me.

Final Fantasy

So I've been thinking... Final Fantasy is doing its thing, and its spin-offs and branches are doing well and all... but W(here)TF IS OUR NEW FINAL FANTASY: MYSTIC QUEST?

Every other spin-off has been expanded upon. I kno, I kno. It wasn't all that great. But look, if you can screw up SaGa and screw up Mana, how bout trying Mystic Quest? C'mon look at it. I kno I kno that they were originally named some other shit in Japan and it isn't really a spin-off but a different IP but really, let's expand. Also... I doubt Crystal Chronicles or Tactics will have a title change, but it would be akward in a good way if they did. -_- Yes I was bored. Don't mind this bored fanboy.

Addiction

I think I'm addicted to gambling...

Feel good?

Hi. I know practically nobody reads this shit... so yeah. My friend told me to "feel good" today, and I think i mighta offended him by brushing it off as an offhand comment.

But honestly... I think "feel good" hurts. -_- I hardly ever "feel good." Physically, emotionally, mentally. Never. Only little light of every day is when I have a nice conversation with a cool person, but even those don't last long because my emo-ness makes me leave and lie down or I talk to people at the most random of times where they're pre-occupied by other things..

So... Never ask me if I'm feeling good, or ask me to feel good. -_-

OMG I'm coppin a tablet the next time I get a Grand

Dude... I'm Coppin this after I get a job, pay back my debts, and sue UPS.

http://www.wacom.com/cintiq/cintiq-12wx.php

Week 1 Re-Cap

2009 has been a bad year so far...

1. Depression. It's back. :( Don't know why but 2 days after New Years I get hit with the 3rd hardest depression I've had in my entire life.
2. School. I keep messing up. Show up to the wrong class due to a computer error online and then I can't add into the class I actually wanted.
3. Clothes. I bought stuff online and it shipped... Took a while but it finally came to the local area. What happens when it comes to our local area? It gets delivered to another fucking address. Nowhere to be found. Nowhere near my house, nowhere to be found. Grandmother's house? Nope. Aunt's House? Nope. Unoccupied house people just purchased? Nope. File a lost item? Must wait 24 hours.
4. 1 Resolution broken... No eating after 12. I accidentally ate a Kiss that I had unwrapped during before 10.

Animal Crossing?

Kay... I don't really rant all that much but when I do, I go crazy. Really. WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THE HYPE AND OVERALL LOVE for this... crap? Yeah crap, I said it.

I swear to god, how do people enjoy playing this shit? Pick up Second Life or SOMETHING! Atleast that shit is legally free. Really, I tried to like it. I played the Gamecube version, the DS version, tried the Wii Version, I am not impressed. I tried the whole "you don't like it until months into it" thing. I checked back and ran errands for weeks in the DS version and still felt unfulfilled. C'mon really, I hardly want to run errands in real life, why the fuck would I do it as this Nintendo cutified still animal looking only human in the fucking town. Also... FUCK TOM NOOK. Fuck, you, you stupid little racoon that I'd light on fire if I didn't have a conscience or have the ability to distinguish between a game and real life... but then again... This isn't a game. This is a life simulator for people who want to explore their inner beastos and hope to get lucky with the ugly duckling you would hope invite you home for hot coffee after all those mushroom wallpapers you've given her, only to have her kick you out of her house when a certain algorithm tells her to. YOU DO NOTHING. Events in real life are dumbed down and kidified to make you feel that much better.

I hope (and I truly do hope this) that Nintendo originally created this series as a way to make people stop playing games and appreciate their real lives and do real things instead of sitting in front of a TV micromanaging for a chibi thing and helping the town's crappy economy. But now that I see the evil of Nintendo's get rich ways... I think they just wanted to make a game for all the hikis, loners, and the "safe" market. They already go soccer mom's with the "Wii" line of games. And they got the I wish "I was skinnier" demographics with Wii Fit. So... Animal Crossing finishes their Triforce of non-gaming goodness. Really, Wii games are fun, but what part of Animal Crossing is fun for people who go outside? You feel better being an entrepeneur? For fuck's sake. Put that towards lives. You'll be making more money than you did bells if you start selling your Wii Speak bundles online before the production rate catches up with the demand.

Really. I hate Animal Crossing. I tried, I honestly tried, but now I'm honestly trying to stop myself from purchasing any other Nintendo Game that doesn't have a Triforce, Shroom, or a Ball with a thunderbolt through it. Really Nintendo. If Animal Crossing is hardcore *cringe* (I hate that word), then by golly fucc the hard core.

New Years Resoultions

-be a better person. I say this every year but this year I have a good feeling about it.
-get a job... I have to stop being lazy
-get a girlfriend... need motivation for the rest of life
-pay back billz... i gots plenty
-find myself
-be more decisive. many nights were left empty due to lack of decisions
-be more proactive. i need to take more initiatives
-stop eating after 12. unless i'm out, i gotta stop eating after midnight. it makes me fatter and lazier
-lose weight! :o >.> My goal is 5 lbs a month. I wanna be 180ish by June. Do the math
-work out! I wanna get me some more muscles
-Stop... Yeah. :p
-Stop... that too. :D
-Start... XD
-INVEST IN STOCKS!!!

Early Resolutionz

Naruto: Ultimate Ninja Storm will be the LAST game I buy until Street Fighter IV: Collector's Edition or X-Blades: Royal Edition, in February 2009. Until either one of those games are released, I will not buy another video game, for ANY system: Wii, PS3, NDS, iPod, PC, whatever. I'm not gonna buy any game until one of those are released. Reason why?

I'm taking my cousin's advice and buying stocks. It's true, in this economy, people lose faith, but honestly? With all these bailouts, you gotta be a fool to not think shit's going back up. The auto companies are going piss poor pissing themselves. The average person thinks bailing out the auto companies isn't good but they have no idea what the fuck will happen should they fail. Our company would fuck up even more and we'll have even more unemployed people. Whatever. Just put 20 bucks in on a failing auto company like Ford and GM which all these overly xenophobic intolerants will buy but bitch about . They'll be back :P

Also... I got another proposition.